Sometimes All I Need Is…


It must have been three days ago when I found out that Edric is not following me on Instagram. This was a ridiculous thing to be hurt about but I had this theory that Edric is not as interested in my life as I am in his. The Instagram was a minor point to my argument which was based upon two other observations. First, Edric rarely reads my blog. Second, I take initiative to ask him about his day whenever he gets home and he doesn’t reciprocate the same.

In the grand scheme of our marriage relationship these aren’t big, life-altering issues. But one day Edric noticed that I chose to open up to my mom about a concern that I didn’t bring to his attention first. So he asked, “Why didn’t you tell me about it?” 

My frank response was, “I felt like you weren’t available and I didn’t want to trouble you with it. Plus, mom is such a good listener. I felt very encouraged after our phone conversation.” 

Edric loves my mom dearly. However, he felt slighted by my preference for her listening ear in this particular instance. Well, it wasn’t a huge deal so we moved on. But I archived that conversation as exhibit A. Hmm…Why don’t I always think to tell Edric about my feelings or perspectives on people and circumstances? I wonder if it’s because I feel he is busy and not interested anyway? This was my next judgmental thought.

The following day, Edric complained about his Instagram getting hacked. There were two strangers he was mysteriously following. I quipped with a “What about me? Are you following me?”

“Why would I be following you?”

“Because I am your wife?”

“But I am not following anyone.”

“So why do you use Instagram? It’s a social media app.” I am sorry to admit that I said this with annoyance.

He claimed that Instagram was useful for posting cool photos because of the filters. That was it. 

As for my blog, Edric explained that he didn’t think it was necessary to read all my entries because the content revolved around our family. But I was like, “What about my reflections and insights? Don’t you want to know what these are?” 

Honestly, this dimwitted conversation wasn’t worth our time or saliva, but sometimes in marriage you end up talking about all kinds of unproductive things and regret it later. I was to blame because this was my attempt to prove that he wasn’t that intentional about knowing the details of my life. Everything became connected (as they tend to do in the brain of a woman) — my perceived inability to open up to him about my feelings and perspectives, his unwillingness to follow my Instagram, his lack of interest in my blog posts, and finally, the fact that he rarely asks me how I am doing. 

So I added, “I just think that between the two of us, I am the one who makes the greater effort to know you. You hardly ask me questions about my day. It’s always me asking you how you are.”

Edric retorted while feeling less pleasant towards me, “You are right when you say I don’t ask you as much as you ask me. But I demonstrate concern for you differently. I work hard to take care of you and we have date nights to talk heart to heart. I don’t really ask you about your day because you usually ask me when I get home, and I really like that. That’s how it’s always been.”

“Did you not say that husbands should get a PhD on their wives? Don’t you preach that when we give talks on marriage? (Oh, I can be so annoying sometimes!)


Edric looked at me like Whoa lady, you are throwing hail from every direction. What’s going on?! He stomached my statements nonetheless and I began to feel embarrassingly needy. 

“Look, if you have something you want me to know about, just tell me. I shouldn’t have to read a post of yours to find out what’s going on with you.” (Yes, that was actually a good point.)

We went into a lengthy discussion that ended up with Edric saying that he would make a greater attempt to read my entries if it mattered that much. As for me, I apologized for my judgmental and painful accusation — that he wasn’t determined to get to know me the same way I attempted to get to know him. 

Nevertheless, something was missing. Our meeting was business-like, with him sitting across the room on a chair summarizing the arguments and itemizing positive action steps to fix the issue. 

When we were done, Edric was like, “Okay, are we good?” I nodded in the outside but felt wanting on the inside. 

Edric took this as a definite yes. (We should never expect our husbands to be mind readers, by the way.) He excused himself to take a shower while I remained on the bed distracting myself with my cellphone, thinking that our exchange didn’t turn out the way I hoped it would.

However, ten minutes later he came to my side, put his arm around me and said, “I love you. You know that, right? And contrary to what you think, I know you very well. What you really need is this…” (Oh wait! Hooray! He is a mind reader after all!)  

He gave me a hug and a kiss to make sure I was really okay. Then he added with a grin, “I know you like ‘pure’ affection.” Meaning…affection for affection’s sake and not to butter me up for sexual intimacy. (He most definitely is a mind reader!)

Monday night, Edric, asked me detailed questions about my day, too! “I am trying to get to know my wife,” he inserted with a charming smile. I also discovered that I am now the one and only person he follows on Instagram. Bwahahaha! That wasn’t really the issue to begin with but it was sweet of him to make the extra effort to communicate to me that my feelings do matter to him…even when they are about something as non-essential as social media.  

When I think about our entire exchange over the weekend, it was a bunch of gibberish from my end to get the attention of my husband. Yes, it was very pathetic. The root of it all was my recent feelings of emotional neglect. We didn’t have much time to connect with one another over Holy Week since we were busy serving in ministry and dealing with pragmatic concerns. 

It’s great that we had an objective discussion to resolve our problem (even if it was silly-small), but the magic was in the three-part combo of a reassuring I love you, one extravagant hug, and a tender (unselfish) kiss. Sometimes that’s all a wife needs to silence her ridiculous ranting and quell the turbulence in her heart. And it takes a husband who knows his woman well to get this. Hey, hey, so this means Edric DOES KNOW ME, and I have absolutely nothing to complain about! And, hey, he may even read this entry. Therefore I repent in dust and ashes for my exaggerated claims because I am blessed to be a loved, hugged, and kissed wife…thank you, hon.


  1. ha ha ha… good vibes. this is really funny Joy. I hope I could meet you 🙂 you’re beautiful and blessed. Combo! love this. Funny!

  2. Hi Joy!your blog is a breath of fresh air to me..always make my day!:) God Bless

  3. This is actually what i felt. This past days my husband was so engrossed with his new phone and was just totally facing it from morning til night. And at that moment I hate what technology at this times offers. We, girls, wives need and longs for our husbands attention and love and affection.
    He noticed one day that I’m being quiet so he asked me if I was ok. I told him that I’m not because he prefers to face his gadgets rather than talking to me. And his reaction was “you’re jealous over the gadgets?” I said “yes, because it eats out most of your time. And I asked him won’t you feel the same thing if I do that to you.” He was actually sorry after that. But it’s not overnight guys do change, so we need to remind them of that constantly. It’s swet of your husband to address your needs.

  4. Val Serrano says:

    Hi Joy, my now-husband and I attended the BeforeIdo/Saturdates last June. I just hear myself in your blog entry and can totally relate. I know Marwin loves me but we’ve been away for two months now (going back from CA on the 19th!!) and although we’ve been trying to work out the short-time LDR, I still feel neglected and un-cared for. It created a ruckus in his brain just trying to solve me when I only needed for him to give me time and ask me how I am and spend time with me. In the end, I am blest that my husband is willing to take the extra mile to love me relevantly. So looking forward to going home and be reunited! Thanks for sharing.

  5. That was a refreshing post. This also happens to my husband and I. Only he is never able to read my mind. I would have to tell him that he slighted me or else he wouldn’t even realize what he did, even if I sulk the whole day. I hope I also get to be a a loved, hugged and kissed wife. 🙂

  6. JF Pagaduan says:

    Hi Ms. Joy, I am still single but this is soooo sweet! 🙂 (sorry for many letter o’s, I can’t help it) I love your ‘bwahaha” 🙂
    God bless you and your loving family always. 🙂

  7. HI Ms. Joy! This is a nice story that I can also relate but how I wish my husband knows me to well. Like you said, prayers can move mountains ;)). Thanks for making me feel kilig by reading your story.

  8. I could perfectly relate to this.
    Reading your blog, Joy, is like having a conversation with a very good friend.
    I thank God there’s a blog like this. Thanks also to my friend who shared your blog to me.

  9. Hiyas Poblete says:

    Hi, Joy – I read your blog regularly but this is the first time I felt compelled – yes, compelled – to leave a comment

    • Hiyas Poblete says:

      I think my comment got cut off 🙂 I was saying, this is so spot on! Often times, we make conclusions and form connections in our head, expecting our husbands to be mind-readers. In reality, they love us very much but they express themselves through a different “language of love”. I especially like your segment on “pure” affection and how sometimes, our husbands know us better than we know ourselves. I join you in repenting in dust and ashes! Thank you for writing about this and making me feel like I am not the only wife who struggles with these moments of doubt or weakness. I look forward to your next entry and have a grace-filled week ahead 🙂

  10. What a timely post! I felt unloved and needy last night, and my husband and I fought. In the end, I just have to humble myself and apologize (and forgive). This morning, I shared this post to my husband and he said “I should have loved you and appreciated you. Forgive me, sometimes I don’t see things that are important to you.” Praise God!!

  11. A past relationship has taught me the secret to communicating with men – sometimes, you just have to tell them what you need. Straight and nothing in between the lines!

  12. Anonymous says:

    I really enjoy your blog, Joy, but sometimes, reading your posts about your wonderful husband depresses me and makes me feel worse about my own marriage. My prayer since I was a single girl was to have a Christ-centered marriage but disillusionment and lack of faith led me to marry my husband, who is a good man but is a non-Christian. I have already sincerely repented for marrying my non-Christian husband and I know God has forgiven me. However, sometimes it really feels as if he has not yet lifted the punishment or consequences of my sin. This is why reading your posts about imperfect people who resolve their issues through the power of their perfect savior makes the lack of spiritual bond in my marriage all the more evident to me. Hopefully, God will fulfill his promise in Acts 16:31 in my marriage someday. For now, I just pray that God will continue to put joy in my heart, renew his mercies every morning, and keep me focused upon Him who truly is and should always be my first love.

  13. I’m guilty of often thinking/feeling the same way! Thank you for sharing what seemed petty but actually happens in “real life” 😛

  14. Edric Mendoza says:

    Yes, I read this post sweetie!! Well done 😉

  15. How cute!!! ^^^^ 😀

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