This morning, I finally convinced Titus to sit on the toilet. He did go number 2 and I had the terrible privilege of going through fecal matter for the marble (with a stick). This is too graphic. Needless to say, I felt like throwing up. The images will haunt me forever. It was definitely not how I had imagined CSI work to be.
And I couldn’t find the marble. But, I still believe its going to come out.
Titus kept trying to tell me that he feels it inside him. (I don’t think he knows what he is talking about.) As usual, he was still his very smiley self all day.
When he saw me holding the poop stick, he said, “I don’t want you to poke me with that.”
“I’m not going to poke you! This is for the poop!”
When I started looking for the marble he said, “Oh my goodness! Ew! What did I eat?! I think that’s my fruit and vegetables!” Of course, I started laughing. It was really quite a comedy.
Parenting can be such comedy, especially when you are parenting a Titus!
Titus teaches me not to take life too seriously, but to approach it with a sense of wonder, belief, curiosity, attentiveness, and fun that is child-like and innocent. I don’t think God meant for us to loose those things. I think he meant for us to marvel at his creation, to experience it with our senses, to taste and see what an amazing God he is. I think he meant for us to notice the little details of his workmanship. I think he meant for us to be filled with his joy and good pleasure, to rejoice and randomly break out into song because we understand a deep happiness that cannot be taken away. I think he meant for us to trust in him easily, without fear, without restraint. I think he meant for us to live life to the fullest like he said.…I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly. (John 10:10 NASB)
I don’t know why Titus really swallowed that marble, but a part of me feels like he probably wanted to see what would happen. And I almost want to applaud him for his courage because I am not so brave. He has been my cause and effect child. If I do this, what will happen? Titus has colored my world. He rocked me out of my comfort zone as a parent, as a homeschooling mom, as a person. I had to get to that point of interpreting him positively and studying his personality to appreciate his design. And when I stopped to consider his many wonderful traits, I realized that our family needed a Titus. God knew!